Some things are better left unsaid?

Mixed feeling.

How do I explain to people?
I don't know.
I certainly want to get indulged with all the feeling
But I just can't. Can I?

My bestfriend just loses her father who always mean the world to her.
She loses her mother and her younger brother as well.

I'm sad for her.
I miss them too, cause they always treat me like their own family.

Nisya asked just now
"Akak, kenapa tidur sini satu malam je?"
and I wish to answer with what's really inside me
but instead "akak ada kelas dik"

I told Iqin to stay strong and not to cry
"Am I doing justice, really? she deserve to cry and be sad that she lost her father right?"
I don't know. Really

AI texted - she's going to depart soon.
I guess with this unstable mood - I get sad for her departure to NZ as well.
that means I'll only get to meet her again after a year.

I don't know who I can talk to about all this feeling inside.
People will never get it, right?

Because I don't deserve to be sad.
So, I better left all the feelings inside, unsaid.