It has been a while

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal.

I've recovered.
em, parts of it.

it has been a while since I last updated my blog.
it is either my busy schedule or I'm just too lazy to update a new post.
(well ada je menulis somewhere else)

so after quite sometimes, I went through my blog today.
and I just realized how much I've moved on from my own struggles. 👊

I acted better at home.
I replied better to important messages (if you get what I mean)
I ace things way better than before.
I try to appreciate others and focus more on their good deeds. 
No more sleep in the mosque at the evening just because I want to settle my own feelings.

But tbh, I have other issue with my family - which makes me again, feel that yeah you really can't trust people.
The only shortcut I found now, is just ignore them and whatever they think about me.
I'll just focus to do good to them and again focus on whatever good they offer me and ignore the rest.
I realized of how vulnerable I am, and to avoid getting hurt again I shall just ignore bad things happening in my life.

And I shall reply bad treatments (from just anyone) with a good one.


But here I am trying to sort my life so I can do what's the best for myself so I can always be a good slave for Him.


A friend told me last now the job scope of an auditor and said "Basically everyone in the company, or any company in this world should never messed up cause they need to answer every single thing they did and every single cents the spent"
And how great this world would be if all human beings in this world understand well the fact that they will be audited by Our Lord at the end of the day.
Everyone will then do good and try their best to be the one that Allah approved later.

And yeah today I shall start to implement this and spent well my limited time in this world.

Am now looking forward for next plan, planned by Him :)