Get over it

we went to a trip, with a total of 6 of us.

aku relax je acah okay berdepan dengan dia.
the fact that I know he will never be mine make me stronger.

but eventually after all the jokes around "hey, who's gonna get married soon?"
I cried when I met my Lord in Isya' prayer.
like a baby. teruk benor nangisnya. haha

I was seriously think this gonna be easy.
but its not, its never one.

As how much I wanted him to be by my side,
I know how much he wanted her to be by his side.

I'm sorry that I ranted here. I have no one to talk about this.
because only Allah, you and I know this one fact.
and finally I can just turn to Him and tell Him how much I want you to be happy, here in this dunya,
and hereafter.

Moga apabila kau disatukan dengan dia kelak,
kau dan dia sama-sama melaju menuju redha Dia.

Itu apa yang aku yakin dengan segala ketentuan dan plan yg Allah dh buat lama dulu.
and that includes we were never meant to be together.

I'll try as much as I can to get over you. will eventually make it in shaa allah :)

Excuses!

But Dr, we have to be at the clinic since 8 am. And finish the ward rounds at 5 pm. We don’t have enough time to clerk our allocated patients”

“hendak seribu daya tak hendak seribu dalih. Translate it to your international friend here” he replied. Tapi sambil senyum je. Tenang betul dr aku sorang ni.

“Bro, if you want to do it you will make thousands of efforts and if you don’t want you will make thousands of excuses”

so yeah the presenter smile – guiltily of course. He then resumed the presentation.

Tapi suddenly ada la dekat past medical history tu tak lengkap.

Dr dah tanya lagi, asal tak dapatkan dan tak lengkap?

“Err, the patient unable to talk and the caretaker was not there”

“aha, you are giving excuses again. You have to make effort, dear”

teguran dia lembut je.

"you already give me 2, so far..so there's another 998 excuses yeah?"

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Tapi aku rasa kita mungkin dah terlalu lama lupa dengan pepatah melayu yang  kita dengar sejak bangku tadika lagi ni

Thus, the excuses we give.

Betullah we are giving too much excuses

Dalam study pun

Dalam dakwah dan tarbiyyah lagi lah.

Senang sangat nak bg alasan. Busy study kan kononnya?

Banyak plak masa utk keluar makan selama 2 jam?

Banyak pulak masa untuk bergelak ketawa selama sejam cukup.

Dan tidur selama 7 ke 8 jam?

Belum kira masa scroll dan update di akaun social media kita lagi.

Thousands of excuses we gave, are just an escapism.

Escaping from our responsibilities.

The worst part? Escape dpd tugas sbg seorang hamba dan khalifah.

Oh yes, giving excuse like “I want to do it only because of Allah and not because human ask me to” and “Allah knows how struggled am I” doesn’t justify our acts.

No its not, at all.

Sudah sudah lah.